[ yeah, well, he learned his fucking lesson didn't he? he won't do that again. ]
That's not what I mean. Don't you deserve the chance for someone to know you? Olivia might not like me anymore but she knew me and there was something comforting in that
[ damn... they're kinda just same, aren't they? there's a pause and then: ] If I need to try for myself, I think you do too because when I look at you I don't see anything to make up for But you seem to think I'm an ok person Only seems fair we try for ourselves, right?
We met we were 14 its not like we were any good at it right away It took time and if you actually tried it, you might find it suits you I am just assuming you haven't
yeah and most of them only care about the fashion and the whole mob scene with Al Capone and all that jazz meanwhile I was busy just making ends meet so there's a difference
A lot of people still struggle That never really changed
[ john's been through it a couple times with olivia. that's how he ended up working for valentina. at least now he makes enough to keep her and his son comfortable. ]
I wouldn't really compare the Depression to how people have had to struggle in the modern day but also my point wasn't that I wanted to bond over that?
my interests are also much more dated than most how many people do you know listen to predominantly 40s music? other than me
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Date: 2025-06-09 03:40 am (UTC)that would imply I plan on getting with anyone at all, so nobut I don't play all my cards at oncethat's all
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Date: 2025-06-09 04:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-06-09 04:15 am (UTC)because I'm not who people think I amno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 04:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-06-09 04:22 am (UTC)I don't think you realize how many people approach me at random and expect me to be their best friend just cause they know my name( ...you did this too, john. remember? )
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Date: 2025-06-09 04:27 am (UTC)That's not what I mean. Don't you deserve the chance for someone to know you?
Olivia might not like me anymore but she knew me and there was something comforting in that
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Date: 2025-06-09 04:37 am (UTC)why would I deserve something like that?no subject
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Date: 2025-06-09 04:57 am (UTC)what??because I'm me is exactly why I don'tthere's still a lot to make up forno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 05:01 am (UTC)But you seem to think I'm an ok person
Only seems fair we try for ourselves, right?
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Date: 2025-06-09 07:59 am (UTC)I mean it's not about looking at meit's about all the shit I did cause of HYDRA
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:04 am (UTC)Hydra had you do a lot of fucked up shit but it doesn't have to define you
[ which he sees now is the same thing bucky said to him. goddamn it. ]
Anymore than my actions do me
Which is what you were saying to me, so take your own advice
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:12 am (UTC)my advice is good for sane people, not unstable centenariansno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 08:18 am (UTC)We need to have a long conversation if you think I'M sane
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:20 am (UTC)definitely more sane that me if you managed to even have a stable romantic relationship at any pointno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 08:22 am (UTC)It took time and if you actually tried it, you might find it suits you
I am just assuming you haven't
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:23 am (UTC)I have tried, thank you for askingthis might shock you, but the fact I'm from the 30s is not something most people find relatableno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 08:30 am (UTC)There are a lot of people obsessed with the 30's and 40's actually so that's just wrong
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:37 am (UTC)no the 1630s obviouslyyeah and most of them only care about the fashion and the whole mob scene with Al Capone and all that jazzmeanwhile I was busy just making ends meetso there's a differenceno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 08:42 am (UTC)That never really changed
[ john's been through it a couple times with olivia. that's how he ended up working for valentina. at least now he makes enough to keep her and his son comfortable. ]
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:48 am (UTC)I wouldn't really compare the Depression to how people have had to struggle in the modern daybut also my point wasn't that I wanted to bond over that?my interests are also much more dated than mosthow many people do you know listen to predominantly 40s music? other than meno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 08:55 am (UTC)Ok good point but you read a lot and people do that still
And what is a podcast if not a radio show, right?
[ when the homie has low self-esteem and you're trying to gas him up. ]
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Date: 2025-06-09 08:58 am (UTC)radio plays are something of a lost artbut I will conceded that some podcasts do capture the old feeling of a good play
most people listen to Rogan or that crime shit thoughno subject
Date: 2025-06-09 09:12 am (UTC)Loved them but they were idiots
If you want any recommendations let me know, I preferred the other kind of podcasts
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Date: 2025-06-09 02:07 pm (UTC)he's just some guy who likes talking to peoplethat doesn't make him a genius
the ones like radio plays? you mean?(no subject)
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