[yellow, she vaguely recalls... used to be her favorite color. she thinks. or at least it was the color of her favorite dress, covered in little flowers. back when she could wear such things. or maybe it was her only dress, after she was taken from the orphanage. she liked yellow, back when colors were a thing to enjoy, crayons and ribbons and silly frivolous things like stickers on notebooks. back before everything became shades of grey and standard issue. machines and sterile lab tables and the plain walls of her holding room. a suit designed to contain her, cage her.
she sorts through the yellow options, there aren't a lot. maybe yellow isn't a color others find particularly sexy. but she's not so concerned about others.
the next photo he gets, they're no longer on her head but hanging from her gloved hand. a frilly girly pair that she's uncertain about, because... ruffles seem quite silly. and a strappy little thong, with a tiny bow. both out of quite obviously transparent sort of fabric. she supposes that's fitting, giving she's a transparent sort of woman.]
yellow doesn't seem all that popular. which ones do you like better?
guess i'm just trying to convince myself that i feel that way.
[ both options seem as good as the next. john's truly out of his element and sometimes he feels like with women there is no right answer. but he's trying to be better about being aware. ]
They both look good but I like the little bow on the second one Makes it feel like you're all wrapped up for me to undress
You are, Ava and I'll keep saying it until you believe it
[she's not even sure why she's limiting herself to one or the other, other than she's not trying to overwhelm herself by doing too much outside of her comfort zone too quickly. but she gets herself other things too. a fuzzy robe, some scented body oil. she considers the candles, but they all seem too overpowering so she skips them.] i'll leave most of the packaging behind when i stop by tonight don't get started without me.
hearing you say it helps. but it's less of a belief, and more of a... physical feeling that's separate from how i actually look. my body was broken for a long time, i couldn't feel anything but constant pain. now i'm figuring out how to actually feel good. in my skin.
those panties on head pictures really get you going, huh?
you are, john. helping a lot. showing me how good things can actually feel. that i can still feel safe and comfortable even outside of the suit. still be wanted in my natural state. that i can use my body is so many other ways, that i want to explore with you. and that i can wear silly little underwear that i want you to remove with your teeth.
It's just you, actually and the thought of you in those skimpy little underwear laid out for me
With my teeth, huh? I know you were being very vulnerable and honest with me and I appreciate that. I'm glad you trust me, I am but with my teeth? I can do that
[okay, mind very quickly changed. she gets both. variety is good, right?]
i'm an excellent liar, walker. been fooling myself for years that i didn't want anything like this. and then you came along and fell 40 something feet down the elevator shaft at my feet and i haven't known what to do with myself ever since.
thought you'd end up all... huffy and offended and blustering over me trying to take you down a few notches. instead i realized just how much fun it is to get you worked up. it's much more satisfying.
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Date: 2025-05-25 03:03 am (UTC)Yellow would look good on you too
Oh, I definitely appreciate it. Of course I do but I'm just saying you're hot with or without it
[ he doesn't quite get that is about her but he'll get there eventually. ]
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Date: 2025-05-25 05:17 am (UTC)she sorts through the yellow options, there aren't a lot. maybe yellow isn't a color others find particularly sexy. but she's not so concerned about others.
the next photo he gets, they're no longer on her head but hanging from her gloved hand. a frilly girly pair that she's uncertain about, because... ruffles seem quite silly. and a strappy little thong, with a tiny bow. both out of quite obviously transparent sort of fabric. she supposes that's fitting, giving she's a transparent sort of woman.]
yellow doesn't seem all that popular. which ones do you like better?
guess i'm just trying to convince myself that i feel that way.
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Date: 2025-05-25 06:59 am (UTC)They both look good but I like the little bow on the second one
Makes it feel like you're all wrapped up for me to undress
You are, Ava and I'll keep saying it until you believe it
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Date: 2025-05-26 02:36 am (UTC)i'll leave most of the packaging behind when i stop by tonight
don't get started without me.
hearing you say it helps. but it's less of a belief, and more of a... physical feeling that's separate from how i actually look. my body was broken for a long time, i couldn't feel anything but constant pain. now i'm figuring out how to actually feel good. in my skin.
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Date: 2025-05-27 03:44 am (UTC)[ john, you impatient slut. ]
Guess I never thought about that, I'm sorry. I want you to feel good all the time and if I can help, I want to try
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Date: 2025-05-27 04:00 am (UTC)you are, john. helping a lot. showing me how good things can actually feel. that i can still feel safe and comfortable even outside of the suit. still be wanted in my natural state. that i can use my body is so many other ways, that i want to explore with you. and that i can wear silly little underwear that i want you to remove with your teeth.
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Date: 2025-05-27 05:01 am (UTC)With my teeth, huh? I know you were being very vulnerable and honest with me and I appreciate that. I'm glad you trust me, I am but with my teeth? I can do that
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Date: 2025-05-27 06:17 am (UTC)what can i say. i like your smug little smile. and the scruff of your beard.
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Date: 2025-05-29 10:10 am (UTC)I knew it. You're a shit liar, Starr but you're cute and you got me by the short ones so whatever you want, you can have
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Date: 2025-05-30 08:36 am (UTC)i'm an excellent liar, walker. been fooling myself for years that i didn't want anything like this. and then you came along and fell 40 something feet down the elevator shaft at my feet and i haven't known what to do with myself ever since.
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Date: 2025-06-05 09:03 am (UTC)You seem pretty confident with yourself when you want to tease me
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Date: 2025-06-05 09:17 am (UTC)thought you'd end up all... huffy and offended and blustering over me trying to take you down a few notches. instead i realized just how much fun it is to get you worked up. it's much more satisfying.
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Date: 2025-06-08 09:50 am (UTC)[ you know the absolute railings he gives her. ]
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Date: 2025-06-09 05:27 am (UTC)but don't forget i enjoy what your hands do when i'm out of reach too