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[dimestore]

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[counterstep]

hey, had to get back at you at some point
it's only fair 🙂

[dimestore]

Didn't think you had it in you, Barnes

[counterstep]

please
like I let people get something like that out of me first thing

[dimestore]

Are you admitting to playing hard to get?

[counterstep]

that would imply I plan on getting with anyone at all, so no

but I don't play all my cards at once
that's all

[dimestore]

Why not?

[counterstep]

because I'm not who people think I am

[dimestore]

Don't you think people deserve a chance to learn?

[counterstep]

I don't think you realize how many people approach me at random and expect me to be their best friend just cause they know my name


( ...you did this too, john. remember? )

[dimestore]

[ yeah, well, he learned his fucking lesson didn't he? he won't do that again. ]

That's not what I mean. Don't you deserve the chance for someone to know you?
Olivia might not like me anymore but she knew me and there was something comforting in that

[counterstep]

why would I deserve something like that?

[dimestore]

Because you're you and you deserve that kind of feeling

[counterstep]

what??


because I'm me is exactly why I don't
there's still a lot to make up for

[dimestore]

[ damn... they're kinda just same, aren't they? there's a pause and then: ] If I need to try for myself, I think you do too because when I look at you I don't see anything to make up for
But you seem to think I'm an ok person
Only seems fair we try for ourselves, right?

[counterstep]

I mean it's not about looking at me
it's about all the shit I did cause of HYDRA

[dimestore]

I just mean you're trying, Bucky and that shows
Hydra had you do a lot of fucked up shit but it doesn't have to define you

[ which he sees now is the same thing bucky said to him. goddamn it. ]

Anymore than my actions do me
Which is what you were saying to me, so take your own advice

[counterstep]

( john having a moment of self-awareness? sounds fake. )

my advice is good for sane people, not unstable centenarians

[dimestore]

[ yeah, well, that unstable centenarian inspired him. ]

We need to have a long conversation if you think I'M sane

[counterstep]

definitely more sane that me if you managed to even have a stable romantic relationship at any point

[dimestore]

We met we were 14 its not like we were any good at it right away
It took time and if you actually tried it, you might find it suits you
I am just assuming you haven't

[counterstep]

I have tried, thank you for asking

this might shock you, but the fact I'm from the 30s is not something most people find relatable

[dimestore]

In this century?

There are a lot of people obsessed with the 30's and 40's actually so that's just wrong

[counterstep]

no the 1630s obviously

yeah and most of them only care about the fashion and the whole mob scene with Al Capone and all that jazz
meanwhile I was busy just making ends meet
so there's a difference

[dimestore]

A lot of people still struggle
That never really changed

[ john's been through it a couple times with olivia. that's how he ended up working for valentina. at least now he makes enough to keep her and his son comfortable. ]

[counterstep]

I wouldn't really compare the Depression to how people have had to struggle in the modern day
but also my point wasn't that I wanted to bond over that?

my interests are also much more dated than most
how many people do you know listen to predominantly 40s music? other than me