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[dimestore]

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[counterstep]

okay

sorry for badgering you about it
I'll get out of your hair

[dimestore]

You're just trying to help and I don't know if I can be helped
But I respect you, Bucky and what you say means something to me

[counterstep]

the only person who can change your mind is you
but if you don't know, how can you know otherwise if you don't at least try?

that's what I think anyway

[dimestore]

Don't even know where I'd start

[counterstep]

well
you can start by thinking you CAN be helped

and see how that shifts things around

[dimestore]

If I start will you get off my back?

[counterstep]

and here I thought you wanted me to take you from behind

[dimestore]

[ it is several long moments before john replies. ]

Now who's the pervert?

[counterstep]

hey, had to get back at you at some point
it's only fair 🙂

[dimestore]

Didn't think you had it in you, Barnes

[counterstep]

please
like I let people get something like that out of me first thing

[dimestore]

Are you admitting to playing hard to get?

[counterstep]

that would imply I plan on getting with anyone at all, so no

but I don't play all my cards at once
that's all

[dimestore]

Why not?

[counterstep]

because I'm not who people think I am

[dimestore]

Don't you think people deserve a chance to learn?

[counterstep]

I don't think you realize how many people approach me at random and expect me to be their best friend just cause they know my name


( ...you did this too, john. remember? )

[dimestore]

[ yeah, well, he learned his fucking lesson didn't he? he won't do that again. ]

That's not what I mean. Don't you deserve the chance for someone to know you?
Olivia might not like me anymore but she knew me and there was something comforting in that

[counterstep]

why would I deserve something like that?

[dimestore]

Because you're you and you deserve that kind of feeling

[counterstep]

what??


because I'm me is exactly why I don't
there's still a lot to make up for

[dimestore]

[ damn... they're kinda just same, aren't they? there's a pause and then: ] If I need to try for myself, I think you do too because when I look at you I don't see anything to make up for
But you seem to think I'm an ok person
Only seems fair we try for ourselves, right?

[counterstep]

I mean it's not about looking at me
it's about all the shit I did cause of HYDRA

[dimestore]

I just mean you're trying, Bucky and that shows
Hydra had you do a lot of fucked up shit but it doesn't have to define you

[ which he sees now is the same thing bucky said to him. goddamn it. ]

Anymore than my actions do me
Which is what you were saying to me, so take your own advice

[counterstep]

( john having a moment of self-awareness? sounds fake. )

my advice is good for sane people, not unstable centenarians